I Just Can't

[LVren]

My boyfriend and I have been going out for over a year, and we have done some intimate things. It took me a long time to even allow him to touch me, and even now I'm still quite apprehensive about a great deal of intimate acts. He told me that we wants to make love to me, but I'm just so scared and he doesn't quite understand. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I pleasure him even if I'm not passionate about it, but it isn't his fault. He just doesn't understand the pain of being raped, nor does he understand that I can trust him without feeling comfortable with intimacy. What should I do?