Joined: 04 Dec 2005
|Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 11:42 pm Post subject: any other ex's there?
|I posted this as a reply to AJ in the open forum, but i was interested if there are any other ex's lurking around, or if any one else wants to chip in.....
It's a rare occasion now that I drop by here, and even though I am in a new relationship I still think often about my ex and the horrific way things ended, as well as the great times we had and the deep love I felt we shared. As such, I do stop by here when the whole thing is too confusing to comprehend and I need to be reminded that it wasn't just me or something I did wrong that ended that relationship.
Nov 25 would have been our 3rd wedding anniversary.
Every year, when I go into town and see, for the first time, the christmas tree and all the lights sparkling and the city hall decorated, I go right back to that place and time emotionally. It's like the time between then and now never was and I miss her terribly, more than I can describe.
What I wanted to ask specifically, do you still see your ex?
I cut off contact from mine about 18 months ago, and even though I know if she needed me, she would call. Even though I know in my heart of hearts that I did what was best for both of us, I am torn apart with guilt at leaving her to deal with everything on her own.
I can't help but put myself in her shoes and I always feel that I would want someone close and familiar to talk to, someone who knew me, who I was bonded to. I promised her years ago that I would never leave her, but eventually a time came when I had no choice.
Logically, of course, I understand that this is all conjecture on my part. For all I know, she may be over the moon to be rid of me, and happier now than ever.
Neither thought is of much comfort, but her situation now could be any one of a million possibilties, I hope she is happy above all.