Something new rising to the top

[nadenewest88]

As a survivor of sexual abuse by my father, and step-father, I find new issues arise. In therapy I have grown so much; I have learned to stand up and reclaim myself. Still I struggle, as sometimes each day something new rises.

Right now the loneliness is what rises up. I know it's old emotions from the years as a young child and teen when I felt alone with the abuse. Today I am triggered as I close out my graduate degree and look to my future, as I see it alone.

It's amazing how much old pain can hurt. The loneliness starts in my feet and moves up. I want to cry and cry. Maybe I will, once I leave work.

In my therapy and healing, I new things would arise, anger was an interesting one, but I don't know what to do with loneliness. Because like all complicated things I am lonely, but don't want to be around other people.

I know that I am not alone; I just pray, that this rising comes out, and leaves. Each one that leaves sets me more and more free.